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Posted by markymayhem90 - January 14th, 2019


100 FANS boo ya  THANK YOU LETS KEEP IT GOING  


Posted by markymayhem90 - January 10th, 2019


i should start makeing my images a little smaller 


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Posted by markymayhem90 - January 4th, 2019


I'm in such a weird state of existence right now.

I have spent so long working to be better at art better at that side of my life.
the social side has taken a massive dive, 
I now feel scared to talk to people I have known for years, 
I worry about asking people to hang out,
going for a drink or food or a movie to do something stupid 
all the things I used to love doing but now I am on a pause 
because just the fear of rejection is repeated over and over.

I used to embrace the unknown now I cower from it wishing to have it again.... but again its Friday night 
I'm not talking to anyone.......
and I don't know how to fix this

witch, when I look at it, is weird because in my self in the best version of me that ever has been ..... so I'm stumped on what to do now. what steps to take forward.


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Posted by markymayhem90 - October 29th, 2018



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Posted by markymayhem90 - October 26th, 2018


last 2 zodiacs tomorow  i got no uploads left 


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Posted by markymayhem90 - October 3rd, 2018


hey guys i did a small animation thing  would really be nice if i could get feed back and stuff  thank you  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ErNRbew_BP8 


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Posted by markymayhem90 - September 21st, 2018


https://www.twitch.tv/markymayhem come keep my company


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Posted by markymayhem90 - August 8th, 2018


Hello i tought i would tell you a little bit more about me and why i draw. 

 

​I broadcast my artwork live on Twitch.tv’s creative channel. I have been streaming for over a year, but I have been an artist for most of my life.  

 

My life story is long, complicated, and has had a run of bad luck recently. A very nasty breakup ruined my finances, and lead to a mental breakdown.  Because of this, I had to move in with my parents in order to survive. A month into my new living arrangement, my dad was diagnosed with Oesophageal (Gullet) cancer. This rapidly spread to the rest of his body, causing additional health issues. Unfortunately, caring for him became a full time job that my mother couldn’t handle by herself. I had to quit my job to help both of them.   

 

In this free time, I started drawing again to help ease the stress. As I drew more, I gained the confidence to stream my artwork on Twitch.  The artwork and the interaction on Twitch went a long way to help my depression. Finally, some relief was in sight.  

 

Unfortunately, things took a turn for the worse. After a year of his diagnosis, my father passed away. At the funeral, I was so overwhelmed with emotions that it cause a second mental breakdown.  This one was worse than the first, and lead to severe side effects. These include loosing time (anywhere between 1 to 10 hours at a time ), longer periods of depression, extreme anxiety, dissociation, and schizophrenia symptoms.   

 

My physician has put me on permanent leave from work because of these issues. I cannot have a normal job, but I still need to make money in order to live and care for my mother.  Drawing is my passion, and I want it to be my job, so I can feel normal again. Every little bit helps, and I appreciate any help that comes my way.  


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Posted by markymayhem90 - July 9th, 2018


hey everyone just so you know im live on twitch most days https://www.twitch.tv/markymayhem come by and watch at some point :D 

 

https://www.twitch.tv/markymayhem


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Posted by markymayhem90 - July 7th, 2018


wow thank you guys  this is my 1st time being on the front page  !!!! i am really over the moon ,  thank you all :D 


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